Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Nicotine withdrawals blow. Blow.So.Hard.

Bad news is - side effects from quitting smoking can be really hard. Like right now. I'm sitting here with my 3rd mojito (big no-no) and I want to ride my friggin bike to the liquor store to buy a pack of smokes. What's stopping me is that, quite frankly, I think I'd eat dirt real bad because it's late and because I'm not fit to drive or ride right now.

Good news is - I have been quit for 1 Week, 2 Days, 12 hours, 46 minutes and 19 seconds (9 days). I have saved $33.35 by not smoking 133 cigarettes. I have saved 11 hours and 5 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 10/5/2008 11:30 AM....(I love this widget I downloaded that calculates all this information for me whenever I type ctrl+F12)

So yes, for the 3rd or 4th time in my life, I am trying to quit smoking. My last attempt lasted about 3 weeks, and the one before that lasted about 6 months(ish). I know now that one smoke leads to more, and that I can't lie to myself that just one smoke will end at that one smoke.

I make myself sick right now. Seriously, I want to go to the store to buy a pack. I'll report bac in the morning and let you know if I made it through the night.

**PS - I didn't even lead into this post, but yes, this is 10yt, a "runner". What a joke. And yes, I've smoked all through my running training. Yeah, I seriously disgust myself right now. Please wish me luck on this, I need it. I know what sets me off from past experience, I just pray that this time I can withstand the temptations that have sent me back to smoking before. Blegh. Bah!!! I hate this. I feel like an addict. But then again, I guess I am, or, I was. Same thing.

18 comments:

ssinca said...

good luck...it's hard, but I know you can do it!

Angie Eats Peace said...

Good luck!
Dont be so hard on yourself, self-loathing wont help, it sounds like you have the motivation and the drive, use that!

Winnie said...

Good luck! I'm cheering you on from the other coast :)

amber said...

good luck to you! :)

Laura said...

Good Luck! I know you can do it.

WeezerMonkey said...

Good luck. AGAIN. Make it stick this time!

R said...

You are an addict, but you can totally kick the habit. I'm rooting for you and I hope you made it through the night!

Serendipite said...

You're doing awesome - don't give up!!

A Feminist Gold Digger said...

I am cracking up because this post is dated today, and it's only noon, and it says that you've had 3 drinks already. Love it.

NorCalMrs said...

You can do it!!!

wan-nabe said...

how the hell did i not know you were a smoker?? good god.

in any case, good luck, d! i know you can do it.

10yearstogether said...

I'm happy to report that it's been about 24 hours, and I resisted the urge. This is not to say that had I had the opportunity, I wouldn't have taken it. Sad, but honest.

Aline said...

BING BING! HONK HONK! W00t! ArrrruuuuGGGA!!

sherthebear said...

keep it up! You can go it!

Leslie said...

Good luck! You can do it. It's so hard, but it'll be worth it in spades, I promise. I smoked for 10+ years before quitting a year and a half ago, so I should know. :)

dapotato said...

you can DO it! really, good luck. :)

kccat said...

Good luck. You can do this!! Wishing you all the best to kick this habit.

Trisha said...

I hope you're still on track with your no smoking quest. YOU CAN DO IT!!!